Quite reluctantly, I waited. But, I'm a doer and I cannot, absolutely CANNOT, just sit idly and wait for something to happen. I've got to be up to my elbows in something! So, I prayed. I asked for patience, for guidance, for wisdom, for God's will to be shown to us, for a door to open.
Slowly, like the dawning of a new day, we began to feel that God was asking us to walk a different adoption path this time -- international adoption.
Just the thought of it instantly made my stomach flip-flop, palms sweat, and knees go wobbly. International adoption was something I had always dreamed of doing ... someday. Because someday, we would be filthy rich and fly to some exotic country in a private jet or something... But now?! To do it now would require ... gasp! ... faith!
God is asking us to hold His hand and trust Him on a journey that promises to take us into the depths of the unknown. We've never traveled this road before. We don't know what the outcome will be. We can only trust that God will walk with us each. step. of. the. way.
I close my eyes ...
take a deep breath...
and whisper (because I am scared)
"Yes, Lord. I'm willing."