Friday, January 7, 2011

Stalled...

I had it all planned. Our adoption agency required that we wait one year until we adopt through them again. That year ended this month. As soon as the office opened its doors after the holidays, I would call and request to start the adoption process again (via foster care as our last three adoptions have been). We would get two boys to add to our family. It would be perfect! And then ...

My husband just informed me that he doesn't want me to make the call. just. yet.

Whaaaaat?!?!?!?

I've been counting down the months, the days, the hours. My fingers have been literally aching to pick up the phone and make that call. My heart is more than ready for a new addition to our family. And now...?

I have learned enough about walking with God to know that His ways are not my ways. But somehow, the more emotional human side of me kind of went into a lurch, like when you are running towards the end zone and someone yells at you to freeze. My brain is doing a double-take, trying to adjust to the command to stall when all systems had been set to "GO!" And then ...

This morning I stumbled across some pictures of orphan boys in China on someone's blog. Is this...? Could this be...? Are we being redirected...?

We've never done an overseas adoption before. We aren't rich. Sigh ...

We need to pray!