Friday, February 8, 2013

No.

It's a word that is only two letters long but it can bring your world to an abrupt standstill.

It did for us.

Our four Latvian kids have said "No" to our adoption request.

Simple.

End of story.

No.

I don't understand why. I don't like it. I don't want it to be this way.

But the answer remains...

No.

And I feel like this big chunk of my heart just curled up and died.

I hurt.

I rage.

I beg God for ...

answers...

reasons...

guidance.

I don't want to accept it.

No.

The word can be as final and devestating as death.

No.

The word echoes throughout my soul and reverberates through my thoughts.

No.

And yet, through the tears...

there is an Almighty arm I lean on and trust in everything.

And He promises...

That He will bring something good ...

out of every ...

No.

6 comments:

  1. I'm so sad for you (and them!)...and so surprised they said no.

    Praying God gives you peace and also wisdom as for what He has next in this journey.

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    1. Thank you so much for your comforting words. They really mean a lot. :)

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  2. I am so sorry! That is heartbreaking. Praying His peace is felt as He guides your steps.

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  3. I'm so sorry they said no! I'm sure quite a shock after how things were when they left! I will be praying for peace as well. God knows the whole picture, we have to have faith that this small part will work for His glory in some way. Will continue to pray for your family as you open your hearts to more children to love!

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  4. Thank you, everyone, for your kind comments. :)

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  5. I thought I had left a comment. This reminds me that there are always two sides to every story. I am sorry that you are walking through a no when your heart yearned for yes.

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